my fan

I forgot to mention earlier that I have started a few posts in the interim but I never finished them and posted them. This is for two main reasons, 1) I wasn't too sure how to word what I wanted to say/I didn't really know what I wanted to say about the topic and 2) I was too tired to concentrate and stay awake long enough to finish writing. They may, at some point, appear here, but then again, I may never figure out what I want to say about it or decide that I don't want that on the internet, immobolised forever and ever and ever.

Anyways, as I've mentioned before, it was excessively hot today. For some reason I feel like if I fight against something long enough then I might 'win'. A good example is my fan.We only have 2 fans in the house and in the summer they are a hot commodity and constantly fought over/stolen when people leave their rooms. For this reason I kept my fan, the better one, in my room throughout the winter, therefore I get first dibs in the summer and my room stays nice and cool. So, back to my stupid fighting against something inevitable thing. Basically, despite the stuffy feeling in my room, I refused to turn the fan off, mainly because it seemed like a lot of effort but also because maybe if I could survive the heat then I would slowly adapt and eventually the heat wouldn't bother me. No such luck. It got unbearable in my room, especially because my friend and I had done our nails in the morning then I split some nail polish so had to use the remover on my bed. The heat made the smell worse and I didn't feel too great after a while.

Eventually around 8ish I decided that the fan was a good idea and not giving up. However, I'm not sure why but the fan seems to have broken during the winter hibernation. It would turn off for no reason, increase and then decrease in speed/power reptitively and beep (changing modes or time or something). But none of this was because I pressed a button to make it happen. It got quite annoying so I had to turn the fan off but then it got too hot and I had to turn it back on. It's a vicious cycle.